My search continues

Last week a friend of mine gave my information to a someone who was seeking to rent a room in their home. I have gone through this several times and it seems it doesn't work out for me. The first time I rented a room in someone's home they took my money but did not pay their mortgage. Needless to say I came home one day and their was a notice on the door by the Sheriff's office giving me 30 days to vacate the premises.

I cannot understand people who sublet rooms in their homes and know their  house is in foreclosure and they do not disclose this information. That is not and honest practice. I don't think people are concerned about being honest though when they are saving their own butts.

Being homeless is a lonely venture. This is the first time in almost two years I have made this public. It is all so strange to me to share so much of myself. Growing up I was an extremely private person. I wasn't shy but I told very little about myself until I got to know you.

I am doing this because writing stops my depression. I have all these thoughts in my head and putting it down on paper is very therapeutic for me.

It was not always like this

I never knew that divorce and losing a home could be so traumatic. 

When I was a young girl I always imagined this big fairy tale wedding, where I would be swept off my feet by my own prince charming. As you can tell I was really into fairy tales.

In 2000, nineteen years later he went to an assignment to Korea and everything changed. By then we had 3 beautiful children together but I think the freedom that lifestyle afforded him was too strong a temptation.

In 2002 he came back and asked for a divorce. I was devastated. I had also found out I had esophageal cancer. I had to stop working for awhile, unemployment was not enough to pay for the home. I lost my home, my marriage in the same year. This blog is a healing forum for me. I am now living  in a car and this blog chronicles my past, present and future challenges.

(this is where I sometimes park my vehicle)